New Book

Well I haven't talked to you in a while. I have finished reading the 5 love languages and the 5 languages of apology. I am now on to the Reinventing your life book, this is the one that Marie suggested to Tia for me. I am feeling very uncomfortable with how many of the lifetraps I actually am trapped in. I am seeing my self in the examples that are given in the book. I see myself using all three coping techniques, surrender, escape, and counterattack all in the same instance. I often criticize myself harshly, then try to avoid the problem, and if I can\'t avoid it I act superiorly over the others around me. I think that this book might be the one thing that will help me become a better person. I am willing to change because I would like to have a relationship tha is based upon love  and honesty. I am making a bigger effort into being aware of what I am doing emotionally. I am still finding talking about my feelings very difficult. This is only the beginning. I have a long way to go and I will get there. That is a promise. I just need to remember to tell my wife what I did, what I think I can still do, and if that is ok (giving her the control). I am sitting here and still not liking that idea yet I need to get what.