Thursday

This morning was really good.  I came home to be intimate with my wife. She sent me a text message with explicit instructions which left me very intrigued so I was trying to rush to get home to her. The one thing I forgot was that when it is miserable out, that is when people decide to come for breakfast really early like @ 7 am. I made it home by 8 am. and we had a full hour of sensual pleasure. We baby danced with the potential happy ending. Normally I am done right away except today I kept going like the energizer bunny. Later today I was asked by my wife to go to her mom's house to help her sister take care of the baby because her back was really hurting. I immediately got up and got dressed and went over. While I was there I got to feed the baby in her high chair. This was a first experience for me. I thought that it was really nice of Tia to suggest that it be me that feeds her. I thought the day was going pretty good until we got home and had dessert. It was then that I was getting my contacts from the one phone so I could put them in the other, it was then that Tia asked me if I got what I needed to get done. I said that I got the one chapter done, which then she attacked back that it should have been done 2 days ago and that I spent too much time dealing with the contacts in my phone, when I should have been reading and journaling. On some ends I agree that I should have been done the stuff that I needed to do before I sat in front of the tv. Yet on the other hand, there has been a lot done today and I would like to relax for a little bit. I guess I don't really understand Tia hasn't really noticed the things that I actually have been changing. For example, I am trying to speak her love languages, I am trying to stay positive, I am trying to be the man that she fell in love with, the one that would do stuff for her at the drop of a hat. The only problem is that I feel that none of that makes any difference. If I don't finish my reading exactly on time I have failed her once again. I know that these are just tasks but I said that I would do them. This is the follow through that Tia really wants to see me do on a daily basis. Like it says in the Apology book "his follow-through is what make her aware of his sincerity".  as well as "the key is being willing to admit your failures and get up and try again". I need to put this stuff into practice and I think that stuff will improve