Last night at work was pretty slow. So I asked Tia to come down to Humpty's to visit. I really enjoy her coming down and sitting there, especially since I have stopped the lies. I have stopped looking over my shoulder. There has been a huge weight lifted off my shoulders. I know that the lies for that long was wrong and should have never been started and I feel absolutely disgusted with myself to have let that go on that long. Tia asked me last night if I am ever going to show misery for what I did and I told her that if I let myself get to that point, I would give up on everything including my marriage, career, and life. I also told her that I am going to do everything I can to make our lives better. Tia then said that I needed to journal everyday, put more effort into reading my self help books and retaining and using that information that I learn.